Currently Sainthood By Tegan and Sara Sentimental Tune see related

Take your pants off and sit a spell...

I'm getting a haircut today! I'm so excited, it's needed one for awhile now. It's been so in need that it doesn't now look like it needs one because I've been clipping at it myself to keep it from looking horrindous, but really it's all jacked up.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to be having lunch with Andrea and her mom in Dayton and then going Christmas shopping. Though it will mostly be the two of them Christmas shopping because I have yet to even think about Christmas. I'd presonally like to put Christmas on lay-away for awhile.

Work has been work. Subbing has been slow, but somewhat steady. I do dislike the 5:30am mornings waiting on the phone to ring and then like today not getting any calls. AE is good again, not that I'm getting regular hours, but more so than what I was. It's nice to have a manager that likes me. There is another floorset in a week or so, so I'll be getting some more hours soon. Just hope I don't let myself spend all my paycheck on clothes. It's just hard when I have so few winter clothes.

Hmm...well, I guess that's all I've got for the moment. I just wanted to hope on the updating band wagon since everyone else was. As for the babyshower/birthday things. If both are in January I may only be able to make it down for one of them. But we'll see when January rolls around. I guess I'm going to get dressed here in a few minutes now and make a trip to Target, I need a few things and also the new Carrie Underwood and Glee cd's are out today.

Oh and as for my title/headline thing...I couldn't think of anything and that came to mind. I actually hope most of you have your pants on...though I think there may be a few out there who could be the exception...

Currently Complete Me By Frankmusik Gotta Boyfriend? see related

Boyfriend season?

Recently I've noticed a lot of dating activity going around. People breaking up and hooking up. New relationships blooming. I really thought this sort of thing was supposed to happen in the spring time. Didn't gay men ever see Bambi when all the animals got twitterpaited in the spring? Well, anyway, it seems to be going around and it got me thinking, two of my three relationships began between fall and winter. However, so far this year I've had no such success in finding anyone, but it's still early. All this babble brings me to a slightly odd conversation I had last weekend. I was hanging out at my dad's Sunday night when I got a surprise IM, from you'll never guess...Paul. I haven't talked to him in months. The last time was briefly around my birthday back in July when he randomly messaged me and showed me pictures of his trip to California. So, he messaged me and we talked for a bit, nothing to crazy except me blabing my usual about our past. Then at one point he asks if he can be honest with me and I tell him of course because I like honesty and I want him to be so with me. He then tells me his usually about how he is happy being alone, then he adds and this was quite a shock, he says "but I will always love you." What the heck! I mean where did that come from? The entire time we were together he never verbally told me how he felt about me and it's been a year since we broke up and now he tells me he loves me. How am I supposed to take that? You love me, but you don't want to be with me? Well, the conversation when on a little after that before he tells me he's going to bed and says "the door is open." Basically inviting me to come over. But he was going to bed. That invite combined with what he had just told me earlier had me all confused. So, the next night when I saw him sign on I straight up asked him what was up with what he had said the night before and he said, "I don't know, I don't know why I said that," refering to his comment about the door being open. I went on to ask him what he expected to happen if I had gone over and he still claimed to not know and said he would have been in bed sleeping anyway. So, I asked him what he would of thought or how he would have reacted if I were there in bed with him when he woke up that morning. Again, he said he didn't know. Basically he didn't want to give me a real answer. On the bright side of it all, I let it drop and figured if he wants anything to come of it he'll talk to me and I haven't let it affect me like I used to. So, yeah...

There really isn't much else to report about my life. I've just been working and thinking a lot about what to do with my life. I still need to figure out how to get out of here, I figure I'll stick out the rest of the year subbing and see what I can save up. I'm trying to make a firm plan to make a final decision by summer. I know I keep saying by this time and when it comes I extend the time. But saving up is taking longer than I thought. I'm also hoping for that spark or push to get me going. Something that will over power the fear of falling on my ass. My older brother did offer again for me to come to Texas and stay with them for a month or two until I got on my feet, but I'm scared to do that. I don't want to interfere with their lives and I also don't know anyone down there besides them and being socially shy as I am, it would take awhile to meet people. But we'll see, like I said, I'll give myself until summer to figure something out.

Currently Complete Me By Frankmusik Your Boy see related

Now this isn't right...

I think something is wrong with me...or maybe not, I could be perfectly normal and not even realize it. It's been just over a year since Paul broke up with me and I've done really well about moving on. Yeah, I'll think about him from time to time, but I don't get sad or upset and I don't feel this longing to go back and fix things like I did at first. Honestly I'm ready to move on and find someone new (granted doing so isn't easy knowing how most gay men are). However, in the past week and a half I've found myself in two instances thinking about him late at night and getting emotional about it. I didn't cry like I used to, but I did get a little watery. Both times I found it catching me off guard because I haven't had that happen since maybe January. Maybe it's just me being struck with moments of loneliness and longing to have those feelings back in my life. I'm not really sure. It was just odd to me since it hasn't happend in so long.

In other news life is life, it just keeps going. I've been getting more hours at American Eagle, still mostly all floorset and tasking stuff, but at least it's hours. The subbing calls are starting to come in finally. I haven't taken any yet because I've been busy this week with other things, but I plan to start taking the calls next week, which means I'll have to start getting up at like 5:30am and working full work days and maybe even full work weeks.

I'm sure I have other things to report about, but I can't seem to think of anything. Oh well, maybe next time.

Currently Breakthrough (includes 5 Bonus Tracks) By Colbie Caillat I Won't see related

A little political...

Okay, so most of you know there are two things that I avoid discussing: Politics and Religion. Those two things make such a bad combination and both things personally affect my life. I don't really talk about them because well, I don't feel I know enough to deeply and correctly discuss either. But like I said they closely affect my life at this time. So, anyway...I was doing my usual exploring of the internet and came across two very good videos relating to marriage equality. One made me laugh, the other made me think and both were ever so true. So, I thought I would share.

1. We'll start with the humorous one. I'll also give this one a disclaimer, those who have strong religious views may find this one offensive. You shouldn't because it's all based on fact, but you might, so don't get mad at me, I didn't make the video.

Betty Bowers explains traditional marriage to everyone else

2. This second video is on a more serious note. It comes from Ireland and is an actual promotional commercial for marriage equality. Definitely makes you think.

Sinead's Hand

*for some reason I couldn't get the videos embeded, so you get links. Sucks, but make it work.

...In other news, nothing much is new with me. Summer is basically over and it sucks. I managed to get no tan at all, my job at the pool is coming to a close which means less money coming in. Subbing jobs are slow to come, I have yet to recieve one call, but then again it's only going in to their third week back.

Glee premired last night and it was awesome. Definitely one of my new favorite shows. If you watched or get a chance to hear the version of Rihanna's "Take A Bow" that the actress who plays Rachael sang, you should. In my opinion she sings it much better than Rihanna.

Well, I think that's all I've got for now.

Currently Exposed By Kristinia DeBarge Speak Up see related

It's not all about you...

So, Whitney inspired me to make a post (which I've been meaning to do anyways). The Wednesday after our birthday bash, I had what turned out to be a date...or I guess it was a date. We did a little more than hangout. It seemed to go well and I quite enjoyed it, he seemed like a really good guy. Too bad he's been really busy with work and such things ever since and so I've yet to have had an opportunity to see him again. That's not to say I haven't been trying.

Anyway, the next weekend was our trip to Kentucky for the family reunion of sorts at my aunts house. Let me just say that I did not have the most enjoyable weekend. The trip down was fine and somewhat fun and it was good to see those who were there when we arrived, but that's about where the good stopped. I will say though that the pool breaking was quite exciting. Bad, but exciting. Six of us were in the pool playing vollyball and well, I jumped for the ball and missed and fell under. When I came up I heard "POP!" (mind you this is not an inflatable pool, but an above ground pool with a deck around it.). I then felt myself moving. Turn around grab the wall and see my brother being sucked out of this big gapping hole in the pool. He grabbed the edge if the deck just before going through the whole. So, all of us either stood there or grabbed the side as we watching the water rush out of the pool and down the driveway. My aunt lives on a rather large hill, so it looked almost like a water slide. So, no more pool for the weekend. Which was sad because I wanted to get my tan on. Sad note number two is that is wasn't really sunny anyways. On to the rest, well...I basically spent the rest of the weekend by myself because a few people were becoming very irritating to me, my brother and one of my aunts to be exact. Though I will say I was also a little bother by my aunt whose house we were at too. I won't say much more about all that. However, my brother upset me again when we got home and refused to give me gas money after I drove us all down and back and used a full tank of gas. Finally I got that sorted out. He still isn't giving me as much as maybe he should, but it's an amount I can settle for.

In other news, I've just basically been working since then like usual. It's almost time to start back to subbing again. I don't know that I'm exactly looking forward to that. But at least it's a job and it's money that will hopefully get me out of here soon.

Well, that's it for now I guess. I can't think of anything else, though I'm sure I probably will once this is posted. Oh well.